My walk to Emmaus......

Well this might sound a little strange but I am going on a retreat....I don't often consider this type of outing. I am not the person who likes to be out of contact with my children or my family. I have not been on one since I was a teenager.

I will be picked up by my sponser on Thurs. evening, the 19th of April and taken to Lake Lavon. Unless there is an emergancy I will be out of contact from the world until Sunday evening. The weekend includes 15 classes, a lot of prayer and daily communion. I have to admit I am a little nervous. One of the parts of the weekend is when we read letters given to our pastor from our friends and family. Part of me feels like the last person to get picked for kickball. I worry that no one would want to take the time to write me a letter.
Self doubt is a scary thing. The other night a lady told me I was pretty and I thought she was making fun of me. My first reaction was of self loathing. That is something I hope to work on this weekend. I hate being fat. I am working my butt off watching every bite I eat and play raquetball at least twice a week. I know I need more exercise but I am so tired. Being anemic doesn't help but I know it is not an excuse.

If any of my loved ones would like to email me a letter for my retreat - you can send a note to my pastor. I just went to check my pastors email address and found out that .......

Brandon got the call last night but.....
Brandon's liver call was a false alarm. How stressful this is going to be for his family. Please pray for them.

Tarah's first softball game...

Tarah has been practing her pitching in the back yard with a new net we got her.

Tarah is on the team with two of her best friends so it is a lot of fun for her.

Kevin was car pool dad....it is nice that Tarah and all her friends live so close together. They ride together a lot. The other parents are really awesome so the girls spend "a lot" of time together. I am really proud of Tarah. She loves softball and is getting really serious about practicing.

Johnny's first Blast Ball game...

Johnny's 1st game of Blast Ball....they are supposed to hit the ball off the Tee and then run to 1st base. When they jump on the base it makes a honking noise! Alex went with us and we tried to bundle up because it was 20 degrees and snowing!

Johnny forgot one glove so the other hand stayed in his pocket most of the time. He has three layers of clothes and a jacket on.

When it was his turn to bat he really didn't want to take his hand out of his pocket!

He hit the ball and made it to base with his hand right back in his pocket!

He had a great time and it is nice that they don't keep score at this age.

What a busy day, week or month......

Well this is the time of the semester where it really comes down to it. Pass or fail, it is unbelievable stress. I am not sure how Teresa does it. It is all I can do to hang on but I couldn't do it without Kevin to take up all the slack I leave some weeks.

The kids are a wonderful help and I am taking a nice roast and potatoes for dinner tomorrow. Wish us luck on a week full of tests that we haven't studied for and understanding children and bosses.

Easter turned out really nice. Tarah spent the weekend with her Dad but Alex came and helped out which was really wonderful. The Easter bunny dropped off a basket for Johnny. He was thrilled. He got a car(from Alex) and a cool plane fan and lots of candy that he is not allowed to eat until after a meal.

The craziest thing happened last week. I am always giving Tarah a hard time about eating better and getting more rest. I have always worried about her being anemic. Turns out after both of us getting physicals that I am the one who is anemic. Which is bizarre since I eat better as far as vegetables and fruits and lean red meat goes. It is not fair. She is enjoying giving me a hard time and telling me I have to go to bed early.

I guess this explains the crazy pica I have been experiencing and the exhaustion and the freezing. Well the iron should kick in tomorrow....................

something new for Feebs

I put a little link to my favorite TV star on the bottom of my page. I thought Feebs might enjoy it. The first one is my favorite but the automated function added the extra three videos. Teresa has her GB fan club going on so I had to add my Sawyer.....warning blatent chick flick stuff!!!

HI to Darlene from her friend from TWU

Here is a picture of Ellen. She is in charge of the Children's dept. at TWU. She often askes me how Darlene is doing. She used to talk to Darlene at the ALA conferences. She sends her Love to Darlene and I have her email address in my school books somewhere.....

my hard drive is full!!!

I was attempting to download the video of my performance and somehow I managed to fill up a 16 gig hard drive. I am going to have to do some matinance and burn all my pics on cdr.

Life is crazy here. I have been showing some signs of my drepession returning. It has been such a long time that I had really hoped it would be gone for good. I am going to a retreat on the weekend of the 19th and I hope that will help some. It is the "Walk to Emmaus" I am really looking forward to it. I hate the thought of having to take any type of medication every day, the side effects can be so awful. I will do all I can to help the symptoms in other ways. The insomnia and the mood swings are very distressing. Kevin helps keep me honest about the effect my condition can have on those around me so I will go back on my meds if it starts to affect my family or my work.

There was a report of a tornado just now in Arlington. How exciting! Sirens and everything.

I am still working on the video.

A great performance and Tarah's upcoming confirmation.

The choir did a great job today. We sounded great and Kevin video taped it for me. It is too long to upload but I will try to edit a small piece to show.

Tarah's confirmation is the Sunday after Easter. The 15th, I think. I am so proud of her. I know she does most of our church activities more for me than God right now, but she always brings some good away from it and is glad she joined in. She is just more of a watcher than someone who likes to be in the spotlight. I wonder where she gets that from.